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Also, today I found out that my mentor teacher from last year lost her husband on Friday. I am so sad for her and her children. She is the nicest most giving woman I may have ever met and she doesn’t deserve half of the hardships she has had to face since my family has known her. I don’t even know what to say. 

14 hours ago

I had a really nice conversation with my grandma today. We haven’t talked in forever so it was really nice to catch up. We were on the phone for at least 40 minutes. 

There were parts of our conversation where I couldn’t even recognize her dementia. She seemed so on top of things, like remembering our neighbors from when we were in our rental and how nice they are. But then other times it was just so evident, like forgetting Phillis and Eric’s names when they were at her house just yesterday, and forgetting that they raised chickens when my mom was young.

I’m really glad we got to talk today as it’s impossible to know how much longer we’ll be able to have nice conversations before the dementia gets worse. It’s so sad watching a loved ones memory just slip away like this; it honestly breaks my heart. But, something tells me that no matter how bad my Grammy’s memory gets we’ll always have a special connection. I’ll always be her schoochie ba nuch (which s probably spelled way wrong, but the sentiment is still there).

3 days ago

Every summer for the last couple of years Rascal Flatts stops in Hartford on their tour and everyone from my town flocks to see them. The funny thing is none of them even genuinely like country music, rather they like the idea of dressing “country” (ie. crow tops and short shorts with their “cowboy boots”) and getting drunk in the parking lot starting at about noon. Then they take their wasted little selves into the venue to watch the show from the lawn. And the funnier part is these are the same kids who pride themselves on being “classy” lol funny joke. 

I don’t know about you, but if I’m gonna spend money on concert tickets I’d much rather be up close and personal watching them live rather than on tv from the lawn, and I definitely would want to be sober as to actually remember the concert. People irk me.

3 days ago
Her hair was up in a ponytail
Her favorite dress tied with a bow
Today was Daddy’s Day at school
And she couldn’t wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her,
That she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand,
If she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid;
She knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates
Of why he wasn’t there today.
But still her mother worried,
For her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again,
She tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school,
Eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees,
A dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back,
For everyone to meet
Children squirming impatently,
Anxious in their seats.
One by one the teacher called,
Each student from the class.
To introduce their daddy,
As seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name,
Every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching,
For a man who wasn’t there.
“Where’s her daddy at?”
She heard a boy call out.
“She probably doesn’t have one”
Another student dared to shout.
And from somewhere near the back,
She heard a daddy say,
“Looks like another deadbeat dad,
Too busy to waste his day.”
The words did not offened her,
As she smiled up at her mom.
And looked back at her teacher,
Who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back,
Slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child,
Came words incredibly unique.
“My daddy couldn’t be here,
Because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be,
Since this is such a special day.
And though you cannot meet him,
I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy,
And how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories
He taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses,
And taught me to fly a kite.
We used to share fudge sundaes,
and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him,
I’m not standing here alone.
Cause my daddy’s always with me
Even though we are apart.
I know because he told me,
He’ll forever be in my heart.”
With that, her little hand reached up,
and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat,
Beneath her favorite dress.
And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
Her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter,
Who was wise beyond her years.
For she stood up for the love
Of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her,
Doing what was right.
And when she dropped her hand back down,
Staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft,
But its message clear and loud.
“I love my daddy very much,
He’s my shining star.
And if he could he’d be here,
But heaven’s just too far.
You see he was a fireman
And died just this past year.
When airplanes hit the towers
And taught Americans to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes,
It’s like he never went away.”
And then she closes her eyes,
And saw him there that day.
And to her mother’s amazement,
She witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children,
All starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they say before them,
Who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second,
They saw him at her side.
“I know you’re with me Daddy.”
To the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers,
Of those once filled with doubt.
Not one in that room could explain it,
For each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her,
Was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
By the love of her shining bright star.
And given the gift of believing,
That heaven is never too far
- (via phoebeechippindall)

(via shes-gone-countryy)

3 days ago
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